Let me ‘splain…No, there is too much. Let me sum up.
I have been so torn about explaining my relationship with TG here for many reasons.
1) To do so isn’t fair to TG.
2) To do so isn’t fair to ST.
3) To give into the feeling that I owed an explanation meant I was no longer writing, but journaling. And I am uncomfortable with that idea.
4) In order to explain the entire situation, I would have to delve into TG’s privacy. I won’t do that period.
However, since I’ve made this place very much about my romantic life, it seems some sort of something is in order.
If I had my way a long time ago, TG and I would have been an exclusive couple and I never would have met ST.
TG and I work so well together that I ignored this little glitch and have been very happy with our relationship. While I didn’t necessarily want to date other people, it seemed the healthiest thing to do. I knew that unless he changed his mind, things would eventually end. It wouldn’t be right to deny myself meeting other people who felt differently.
I haven’t written about most dates I’ve had this past year. They never lasted past one. (TG in part has set the bar pretty damn high.) It seemed cruel to use them as fodder for my blog.
Enter ST. He made it to the second, third, fourth…
Though it was obvious he wanted it, there was no way ST would bring up exclusivity with all the issues he would be asking me to accept. But it was hindering us. He wasn’t going to be able to open up and trust me without it. And the same went for me; feeling I had to hide parts of my life made me close up about everything else.
So, I’m taking a chance. This is what I think is best for me. However unhappy TG is with this turn of events, he admits, “it’s essentially a situation of my own making.”
One thing ST will have to accept is that TG is still a part of my life. I will not let such a great friend go without a fight. TG has indicated he wants that as well. Yet another reason why he is one my most favorite people on earth.
TG, thank you so much. For your humor, patience, strength, and support. Thank you for being careful with my heart. I am so lucky that you came into my life.
Um, thank you? I mean it, thank you? ;)
Aw, no one’s ever said that to me before! ;)
this makes me feel hopeful.
I’m such a lurker; I probably should “keepa quiet”…
But damn, TG!! WTF? I know I’m only reading snippets…but how could you let this woman go?
Good luck with ST.
Oh, Carrie, if we’ve learned anything by now, it’s that my dumbassity knows no bounds.