I’d love to be more eloquent about the past month, but I just can’t.
The fundraiser, while a huge success from a logistics standpoint of that evening, did not garner quite the bucks people hoped for. I can’t help it, I take it a little personally since I had such a role in several aspects of the planning. More specifically, I see things that can definitely be improved and feel I might not get the chance to implement said changes.
The same week as the fundraiser, I got a call from GM while on a remote part of the sanctuary property stating a dauchand needed rescue that day – he was on death row. Of course I called Tom, who of course said YES!, and of course the dauchand turned out to be a 45 lb weird basset hound/dauchand/rotreiller mix. He’s way too big and energic for our household. Luckily, I only signed up to foster him (with everyone thinking we’d fall so much in love that we’d “fail” and keep him). Alas, we love him but don’t attend to fail. It’s been very stressful and I am thankful that (fingers crossed) he appears to be going to a new mommy this Sunday. What’s even better? She lives in my condo complex!
A few days after that, we took Roark in for X-rays and got confirmation on what his blood work hinted at. Cancer. Lymphomas all through his body, including one impinging on nerves in his front left leg. Chemo and radiation just sound cruel for a 14 year-old cat so it’s been a ton of drugs daily to keep him comfortable, bandaging the leg as it’s prone to swellings, force feeding at times to keep weight on him, and many many vet visits.
Perhaps the only reason I can write about it is that yesterday for the first time I found him downstairs and ready to eat with the rest of the pack. I know it doesn’t mean anything – he’ll be leaving us soon – but it was such a joy to get that one memory of the cat he used to be.
Other than that, I’ve been sick. Ill. Coughing. Hacking. Sweating. I can’t believe I got through the stress of the fundraiser only to have a complete physical meltdown. I thought I’d finally get back to eating right, exercising, and wow my in-laws at Thanksgiving. Now I’ll just be lucky if I can say hello to all my in-laws without leaving chunks of lung on them.